Back in the Saddle.

It takes time. Obviously. And I am no closer to my normal self, and I don't know what that is or if I will ever find it. But I am someone else now, and that is okay. I hope that I am a wiser person for it, I think much more now, I accept much more now, and I understand the value of taking my time now more than ever. Time is precious, don't waste it on anyone that does not mean the world to you. 

So today, for the first time I am taking a long breath and I am climbing back into the saddle. I have tried to write. I've started sentences many times over the past few weeks, but every time that I do, it all just comes back to him... to Tyler... to all the questions I have for him... all the words that are left in my heart for him... and when those come, I stop typing. (and usually I start crying) I talk to him, often, don't worry. I am grieving the best that I can... but I, now, here, I want to come back to you all and write about what makes me happy... all the superficial things that don't take effort to write  about. I cannot promise that I won't write about my feelings, and I cannot promise that I won't mention how I am feeling now and again. But for today and for now I am back to blog about gooey crap, funny moments, and those things in life that just keep me going. Thank you for your patience. 

Love,

B.

My World. Let's get ready for the holidays!

Forever Yours.

Nostalgia has apparently set in. It's probably Fall Break, but I was looking at my sassy little angel this morning while we had breakfast and I couldn't believe how blessed I've been to have her in my life. She is an amazing person and I can't wait to see who she becomes. I am in love. Through the years no matter how other people have acted or been, she has always been my best friend, I am truly blessed to have her in my life. My world:

Her first week

Her first year

Her second year.

Her third year

Her fourth year 

This Mother's Day

This Month

I've got you babe. 

It's that time!

I LOVE cheesy holidays. 

Pink and Red and Glitter everything.

It's a magical time of the year.

YES, I did go totally overboard. And I'm not even a little bit embarrassed by it.

Have a blast.

I know I am going too. [Eek] Snuggles and kisses and adventures to comes!

Happy Valentines Eve. 

*Pretty in Pink Holiday*

Making the Most.

As Christmas gets closer and I get more excited, I love to reflect on the year that we have had. A personal account of what I loved, what I want to do different next year, and what I want more of in the following years to come. Do any of you do that? I don't do goals. I don't do regrets, I just like to do plans and memories. This year was ethereal for me. I loved the quiet moments, the exciting moments, and I loved that I was able to experience each of those moments with the people that I love and cherish. Today was just one of 'those days' that will go in my book of BIG memories for years to come. I love those days where you just know in your heart, this is going to be a keeper this memory will last a life time. I had that thought today over and over again. The laughter, the giggles, the awe, the joy....yep, it was all there. I hope you all have been able to experience those moments this year, and I hope that next year brings you memories you couldn't even begin to imagine being a reality. 

We all have our memories....

We all have our dreams....

And in the midst of all of that, we have our realities....

                           

  Those cousins that are just the best.

That horse that thought your hair was a treat.

That place that you can't wait to go back too. 

Those friends you love with all your heart.

That kiss goodnight that makes you know you are home.



These are a few of my mementos to this year for my own special reasons. I am blessed. We are blessed.